IRHAMNAA YA ALLAH...

sometime we never know which one is good for us, so that ALLAH give us way to choose by Istikharah
sometime we never know whether a thing is bad for us, so that ALLAH give us friend to share and get advise.
and sometime we must hide what we feel inside if it make other people being hurted
and sometime we must let him go to create his happiness

painful, yes...but someday he will understand what a very special he is for me..
someday he will know what a meaningful he is for me..
someday he will know what a big his power to make me felt in love..
someday he will know what a great love i have for him..
but, for now he can't know it as he likes to judge me

choked me with the words i never say in my life
choked me bad thinking i never feel in my head
choked me other things i never done before

it's not fair, painful, but it's ok if it make him happy
sometime other ppl's mistake looks bigger than our own mistake
why? because we're human being..who has big egoism, who has bad thinking sometime
can we try to change it ? yes, we can ! if we wanna try to replace our self into other ppl's place

i learnt new thing that a men who is not our relatives but can marry us by islam can not be brother....yes...it's new for me. maybe other ppl's opinion about islam
but what i learnt in Fiqih Tarekh Tauhid Akhlaq was a men or a women who is not our relatives can be our brother or sister, no matter the distance, no matter their background, no matter who they are, as we know that all ppl are grand(100 more x)child of Adam AS.
Yes, english language is not enough to express feeling. in Indonesia, elder men or a men we respect called by mas, n mbak for women. mas = brother, mbak = sister. we respect each other no matter their age. it's our way to respect them. mahram ?

I know well about mahram. But i did mistake by shared my pic into internet. uuuffffsss....my other stupid. I thought that i didn't do khalwat with those pic. but yes, now i know that picture also an aurat.

ALLAH SWT, knows very well what happened to me, what was in my head, n will know very well what will happen in my future. And i know exactly the truth of my life. so, if there is other ppl think negative, it doesn't matter. no matter. go with your thinking and enjoy it.

IRHAMNAA YA ALLAH...don't make me dislike them. forgive n protect them always like You did to our prophet Muhammad SAW.